.:[Mommy-talk - and family afternoon at the lake]:.

Yeah, this weekend Alina visited us at our place for some mommy talk and a sleepover. We had great fun! She arrived on saturday morning for breakfast. Since she told me a few days ago, that she is expecting a baby girl, I pulled out old cloth from my daughter Ronja Elina, packed it in little present-bags and hung them up - so the room was a little decorated and Alina had some real mommy feeling unpacking the tiny romper suits. (Of course, she can keep them! I don't know if I am expecting a boy or a girl and I didn't want my second baby to only have to wear Ronja's cloth anyways)

So. this surprise definitely was successful ;D

After that, we went shopping for some fruits, vegetables and juice (hey we're pregnant so we need vitamines, right?! ;D) and had some ice cream at McDonalds so we don't end up beeing hypoglycemic...

I let Ronja play in the McDonalds playhouse/slide-thingy for the first time (wich means I had to climb up arround in that sticky, hot, plastik thing! But it was totally worth it - she had a blast!) Not to mention, that she allready was in heaven for getting a balloon - cool kid, she's reasonless happy.

 

Back home, Ronja took a nap, and we sat on the balcony and just talked about all that pregnancy stuff and having children, raising children...and then we came to a point, that's so important to me...how do you keep calm - always, in any situation, no matter what - with your child. I mean, how do you keep beeing respectful to your child even in situations, where you come this close to just yell at her/him as loud as you can, cause she/he just won't hear!? I always try to get that one picture back in my head when Ronja starts annoy me:

That special moment when I held her in my arms for the first time, promising her (and myself) to always be a kind, patient, loving mommy. That I will never hurt her feelings in any way and that I will do my bestest best to protect her from anyone or anything that might harm her.

But we did have some hard times the past few month. Just struggeling with life itself and I found myself beeing very very close to a mental breakdown. I felt like, I wouldn't have the strenght to handle all the upcoming problems and that I would just totally fail in beeing a good mother. (I messed up a lot in my life, but if there is one thing, that really matters to me, then it is giving my children the best start into life, that I can.)
Now, back to saturday afternoon and the talk on the balcony..I was sitting there, thinking about ways to come down a  bit, to get new strenght...and you might laugh now, but the only thing that came to my mind was: church. Going back to church all of the sudden sounded so right. Felt so right.
And I started thinking a bit further: What is it, that I want to teach my children? In what kind of an enviroment, do I want them to grow up? And I know there is a church not far from where we live - it's the church of jesus christ - the latter-day saints. I used to go there when I lived in Tucson Arizona...but as I came back to germany I stopped living by theyr rules and unfortunately didn't visit church -.- But now, I am honestly thinking about it. I'd actually love to go!

Well, as I was full in thoughts about living life a very different way in the future, my darling woke up, we shared some appels and bananas

and then we basically spend the whole afternoon on the playground in front of our house. It was so fun!
Swinging, sliding, picking flowers, watching Ronja totally enjoying herself and having so much fun out there, was a real healing to my heart. I just let all troubles aside and was so stuck in that moment. Just beeing absolutely happy and feeling blessed for having the most wonderful daughter on earth. Haha she's got such a sweet way of giggling and she even stood up a few times - all by her self without holding on to anything! (I bet she will walk soon - she does walk if you hold her hand, but I can't wait to see her take her first steps all on her own :D)

And of course Alina and me had to take some pics of her 5th month and my 4th month belly :D

sitting among some daisys

walking up the slide

we tryed telling her, that there's a baby inside - hope she's doesn't think we ate some :3

my belly 13th week 

 Alinas belly 21st week

I want my long hair back D; (but hey, at least cutting it helped repairing it)

I  L O V E  my baby-girl

When we went back up, we had some veggies, with poultry and noodles and Ronja proudly showed us how well she can eat with her own lil fork :D (yes, I had to make her take a bath after dinner, but as I already mentioned - she loves that)

When I had my babes ready for bed and took her into my arms to give her her milk, she fell asleep right away. Easy kid :D She slept the whole night through and let me sleep till almost 9am this sunday morning! Wich I really needed...oh I know, I am so blessed!

Today we went for a lil walk this morning and once again had some ice cream at McD. Alina got picked up from there. Meanwhile my fiancè had picked up our car and then we went right on to the next exciting stop this weekend: Gretlmühle - a beautiful lake surrounded by lots of trees and lots of lil frogs sitting at the bank.

The weather was perfect! It was not to hot but not to windy - just wonderful warm! Well - the water wasn't xD Sebastian was brave enough to jump into the lake and do some swimming and I couldn't keep Ronja from away from the water either. So I sat in the lake with her (in my blue jeans, cause I didn't take a bathing suit with me xD) and she was just swashing and plashing in the water in the highest mood you can imagine.

Then we picked some flowers that grew along the bank and did some sunbathing ;D

All in all, it was one of the best weekends we had this year!